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[Feb. 26th, 2009|12:03 pm] |
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Minnesota is literally in a blizzard. We have gotten at least five inches of snow right now. I am just happy I don't have to tutor my eighth graders today. Too bad I still have to go to work. I bet a lot of people have called it, but it is snowing!!! We even had some thundersnow and thundersleet. It is sad because it will probably be our last snow for the year :(
I took a picture with my crappy cellphone camera. Nevermind, I guess my picture won't work. |
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| Dream |
[Jan. 28th, 2009|11:09 am] |
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I had, perhaps, one of the most interesting dreams last night. It really made me sad. I dreamed that my mom and I got into a huge fight, and we never spoke again. The weird thing is that my mom and I had never gotten into a fight that big when she was alive, and I, honestly, don't understand what would make me dream of that. I also woke up just feel very sad. I had when the emotions, which you have in your dreams, follow you to the reality. I think I am finally getting out of my funk. |
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| Update |
[Dec. 19th, 2007|08:27 am] |
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It has been awhile since I have updated this journal.
I have recently changed my major. I learned that I don't like Chemistry at all, so I have decided to change my major to Anthropology from Biology. I will still have a minor in Chemistry though. Hopefully, I like my new major.
I finally found someone. It is weird. I never thought of myself as being the relationship type just because I don't know, but Ryan is totally different. He is the sweetest guy I have ever known buying me flowers and stuffed animals. He seriously has made the happiest I have ever been. |
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[Jul. 16th, 2007|03:20 am] |
Its been forever and a day since I updated my computer.
Lately, I have just been feeling like a failure. My car has gotten hit so many times. My poor baby has so many dings to it. I hate parking lots. When ever I look at those dings I am about to cry. I feel like such a failure for some reason. The car, in some way, represents a happier time with my mom, and I don't like to see it not in perfect condition. I am almost in tears. I am not even sure what is wrong with me anymore.
Also, I am supposed to be getting an apartment with my friend. We are just paying the deposit today. I am afraid that the place wont accept it now even though they told me they will.
I rear-ended someone yesterday. They pulled a quick stop, and I hit them. Both of our cars got minor scratches. I think they scammed me because there was no reason for them to slam on their breaks, but I am just thinking about my insurance rate. I hope my insurance can't be dropped for have three accidents in the matter of three years. I feel like a worthless driver.
Maybe I am having a mild anxiety attack(if they can ever be mild which I doubt they can), but I can not ever stop thinking these thoughts. It seems like my life is so out of control. |
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| Update |
[May. 16th, 2006|07:31 pm] |
Well, I have been so busy. I now work about 35 hours a week, so it doesn't leave much time for computer, but I will try to update.
I just got in a car accident yesterday. Well, I ran into someone's car being the dumb ass I am. I wasn't even distracted. I had my glasses on, the radio off, and my seat properly adjusted. The sun got into my eye and I was turning to wide. I feel like a total ass. I love Megan though. I hit her car, and it takes her two minutes to get off the phone. I was practically bawling and she is the one comforting me. I am so glad it was her. She took it like a champ. I am lucky it was only in a parking lot. I could have of had an accident in the middle of the road. I have been getting a lot of crap from work, but I have survived worse, so I should just be glad that is my biggest prom.
I had prom this weekend too. I got all pretty. I didn't have a date because I just decided to go a week before prom. The school paid for it all because the school decided to sponsor someone to go to prom. I didn't want to originally, but I got convinced. I got my hair cut and highlighter. I got a beautiful gown. I got a spray on tan. I also got a date for grand march, which was really fun.
Finals are coming up, so I should probably be studying, but I figured I need to use livejournal more. That will be my goal.
Oh yeah, I still haven't decided on a college. It is between two schools. I am going to check them out before I decide. If I go to one school, I will be getting in apartment close to work, school, and Pemberton. It would also be almost free. If I go to another school I am getting a better education, I am paying more, and I would be isolated.
There are so many decisions to be made. |
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| Update on the Ides of March |
[Mar. 15th, 2006|09:56 am] |
Um....it has been a long ass time since I have updated. I am not really sure when it has been. It has been extremely busy in my life. I work about 30 hours a week along with school, so I don't have time for much except sleeping at home, working on schoolwork, and working at work.
It is the end of the first semester and second trimester, so I have grades. Yay!
CIS College History U of M: A 93% (.5 weight)
Geometry: B+ 87%
College Trig: A- 91%(.5 weight)
Chemistry: A 97%
AP English: B+ 88% (.5 weight)
AP Enviro: A 96%(.5 weight)
GPA: 4.105
There is this boy Tony that I like, but he is an ass. I know he only wants to sleep with me, but I still like him. I am not sure what my problem is. I think I need to be slapped, but I still like him. Does that make me a whore? I am pretty sure it does. I am just going to try to finish my project that needs to get done by the end of the day.
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[Dec. 20th, 2005|12:50 pm] |
It has been awhile since I have updated, but I doubt many have missed me. My life has been so crazy.
School is going alright.
My grades from first trimester:
Geometry:A-
Chemistry:A
AP English:A(4.5)
AP Enviromental Science:4(4.5)
Trimester Average> 4.167
The rest of my classes are semesteral.
I havent have much time lately. I am just getting hammered with homework. Luckily, I got a computer in studyhall.
My whole thing with Eddie is unresolved. On Sunday night, after work, he asked to go with Walmart with me, and I took him. Apparenly, Brittany(they are kind of girlfriend and boyfriend but not really she only thinks he likes her got insanely jealous. Eddie was going to tell her about Walmart, but I told him he would have to protect me. He told me that he would always protect me, and he would choose me over her. He keeps on asking if we are going on another date. I am not sure if he likes me, is playing us both, or is just flirting.
Oh well, I need to hurry up and I write my lovely, Meggerz back. |
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| Austin |
[Nov. 18th, 2005|10:05 am] |
Today I am leaving for the weekend to go down to Austin, Minnesota. I am not sure when I will be back, but I know, for sure, that I will be attending the midnight showing of Harry Potter....yes bitches! That will be the best part of my weekend. Although, when I get back, I will have to write a five to six page report....oops. My bad! Well...later days! |
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| Pitter-patter |
[Nov. 14th, 2005|09:54 am] |
I think I am extremely sick. I am cold and sweating, but I will get over that. I am tough.
I have decided that I am just going to get over Eddie. He is just really bad news for me. I will not bother him anymore. I will just ignore him....I really don't need gang-drama in my life. I am tough, and I don't care about the fact that I REALLY REALLY like him....I am tough.
I think I need a huge hug. Any takers? |
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| Drunk Behind the Wheel |
[Nov. 7th, 2005|09:53 am] |
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I need to learn how to flirt like stat. There is this boy at work that I can not get out of my mind. I spent like the whole night thinking about him. I probably failed my first two tests of the day, but I could hardly care. There is just something special about him. I am not sure if he likes me....it hurts you know. My other friend, Brittany, has a boyfriend, and yet she stills wants Eddie. I just wish she would be fucking satisfied with what she has. I have nothing, yet she decides she wants everything.
Maybe, I just total a loser. Saturday, I just become overwhelmingly sad. I usually never have destructive thoughts, and I was wondering what it would feel like to cut up my arm, or would it be bad if I just started driving and never came back, or maybe, would it hurt a lot if I drove my car of this cliff. Would anyone visit me at my funeral or in the hospital (if I ever got hurt)?
I am just sick of being alone. That is problem. |
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[Oct. 27th, 2005|10:12 pm] |
Some people have expressed an interest in seeing some of my senior pictures, which I am not sure why....but I obligue my public....just kidding. Well, I look somewhat decent in these. I modified one to a pretty green because I was really bored.
( Cut for largeness ) |
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[Oct. 15th, 2005|11:11 am] |
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I have my senior pictures today...yuck. I actually have my hair straightened and make-up on. It is scary. I look female. Hopefully, I don't look totally like dumb for my pictures. |
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| Ting |
[Oct. 12th, 2005|08:16 pm] |
It has been awhile since I have updated. Not much has changed since my last update. I don't have that much of a social life. Midterms have passed and here are my grades. I shall post them behind a cut because I am awesome that way.
( L for Love ) |
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[Oct. 1st, 2005|11:18 pm] |
Today has been a very overwhelming day.
I went shopping with Miechelle(my sister), Jenna(my niece), and Laura(a family friend). I shopped for two and half hours. It was crazy. I have never tried on so many outfits. It was scary. The scarier part is she bought me like $300 of clothes. Mostly skirts....which actually look good on me. Apparently, she did some more shopping after I went to work(which I was late for). I found more clothing in my car. I just feel so overwhelmed. I just feel so loved. Is it sappy to cry over this? I just need a hug right now. I don't know how I can repay her kindness. She is also paying for my senior-pictures...I love this women. She, perhaps, has to be one of the nicest people I know. |
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[Aug. 9th, 2005|11:00 pm] |
1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.
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[Jul. 14th, 2005|04:46 pm] |
All right, I am finally getting around to updating. I think I need to do this.
As many of you know, my mom passed on July 1st or two weeks ago. It is all my fault, but I guess I can't do anything about it now...sadly. Two weeks ago seemed like an ordinary day. My mom laid down for her normal nap at two, and I started getting ready then. I went to work, which was a bad day. I learned that one of my coworkers (and friend) tried to commit suicide. Then I came home with custard(Culvers is known for that) for mom. She was still sleeping, and I just let her sleep because mom can be a big bitch when you wake her up. I just watched TV and went on the Internet trying to be as quiet as I could be. I got a bad feeling at like two and decided to check on her. Her lips were white, but her skin was just cool. I tried spraying water on her and hitting her with a pillow, but she would not wake up. I called 9-1-1 and the paramedics pronounced her dead at the scene. Later we find out from an autopsy, that my mom had a heart-attack, which is good since she went without pain. She died in her sleep.
Her funeral was last Wednesday. We had about 300 people show up, so it was pretty big. It seemed like everyone and their uncle was there, which was a great feeling. We got like $1,700 for memorial money, which I hear is a lot. I am just so happy my mom had touched so many people's lives. It is a great feeling. I am just so glad that I got to know my mom as long as I did.
Although, since my mom is dead, I officially have to find a new home for me. Many people have offered, but I have basically two decisions. I can live with my friend, Jenny's, house. I would be in Pemberton(my hometown) still and be with a lot of people who love me. My second choice is my cousin Carol. She was my mom's first cousin. She is really nice, and I would be able to keep my kitties. Both are good choices, but I am not sure which is better. Hopefully, I can decide soon.
Edit: I just found a really good picture of my mom with me. It seriously is making me cry. |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2005|04:12 pm] |
I might be missing for a while. My mom has unexpectedly passed on, so don't worry if you don't see me for a while. |
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| Happy Canada Day! |
[Jul. 1st, 2005|02:18 pm] |
I just wanted to wish all you crazy Canadians, "Happy Canada Day."
All right, now I shall get to the boring stuff of my life. Usually, I would just try to figure this stuff in my head, but guys are like math. They don't make sense. I was hoping that if, like math, I put it on paper, that it might make more sense.
First guy, his name is Andy. He works with me. He always seems to be stalking around me. He gave me this annoying nickname of "Handicap." He got that nickname because he saw the handicap sticker on my car (my mom is physically handicap). He always seems to stalking around me, and he always pokes me. I am not sure if he hates my guts or not. He always says to me, "You are the only girl around here I would never EVER date." It is a good thing I don't have self-esteem or I might lose some.
Second guy, Kenny. I think he may actually like me, but I can never tell. I have bad "guy senses." Once at school, we were talking about hanging out since we are both big anime geeks. All right, he is an anime geek, and I used to be one. Now...I have jrock. Anyway, he spent weeks just asking me about it. I finally went over because I had free time. He lended me his whole series of Lain and Inuyasha. I am not sure if he is just nice or likes me. I think my guy senses are because I know I am not hot or even slightly good to look at.
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